-Life as a vegetarian-

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How shall i start.. I am a vegetarian for about 3 weeks now.. how do i really feel i mean this is my first time i am a vegetarian for such a long time now and with so many temptations around how can i be such..

Basically, Its all with swami's grace. I surrendered everything to swami and he would take care of everything and with HIM by my side every single moment everything seemed to be fine. Obviously, we have high expectations of getting the best vegetarian food served everyday but as life goes on we have to realize that not all have the opportunity to live a luxurious life. This is how my life is and i have to get used to and make the best out of everything i have.

I have been eating bread and biscuits for the past 3days and only today i went our for a nice indian vegetarian food. I enjoyed it very much. Only thing is that i have to walk out and take the LRT to go to the restaurant. Maybe god wants me to do some walking and exercise everyday to keep myself healthy so it doesn't really matter right walking to get a good food. :) Hmm.. I was thinking of proposing to the higher board to have vegetarian food served in the cafe but when i think back, how many of them are actually vegetarian in our campus? 5% at least? Would my proposal taken into consideration? Hmm..

Anyway, talking about myself.. I am a vegetarian not because I am praying or something. Its just that a thought strike into me about eating other living things. Imagine how would the animals feel when they are inches away from the knife of the butcher. Their cries and pain which never cared. How will they feel? We are hurting them. They are in this world just like us. We have no right to take a life and I really feel we humans are so cruel, we are so selfish of getting the best for us. Remember our stomach is not a graveyard to consume dead animals. I feel so bad that i was not a vegetarian long time ago. Actually no one had never opened my eyes before. For that i really that SWAMI.

Swami, please help me to resists all the temptations. Sometimes, i feel really scared that i will become much thinner than i am now. This is the greatest fear i have at the moment. But on the other hand i feel, maybe i can buy more food stuff and keep on eating something to fill up my stomach. One of my resolution is to increase 7.1kg by the end of this year. Don't ask me why 7.1. Its just a number came into my mind. :p I just hope i can reach this. I really need to. Swami please help me.

Guess that's all from me now.. I will write again on this vegetarianism topic in 1 month from now.. with more changes in my perspectives and views on my new lifestyle now.. :)