-give me the strength-

Swami, I feel so lifeless. So dead! All my energy have drained out! My heart is full of pain swami! I want to do something so much! But sometimes what I want and what I desire so much is not at all the results of it! Why swami? Why do I have to face so much of challenges at this moment of time? I need time, i really need some time for me to think... To motivate myself, to wake up, to continue my journey to become an instrument of yours swami. I have been thinking a lot lately. I want to be a flower in your garden. But right now I am facing so much of internal conflicts and I just don't know how to resolve them! Please show me a way out swami. I have been asking you for a long time now but you never seem to get me out! Please help me swami! I need you sooo much! :(