-living in thick cloud-

I feel so lost at times. I have been in this teaching course for almost 3 years now yet I feel uncertain about my future. Sometimes, I really love what I do, I love teaching, I love kids, I love the anxiousness I have to teach. But in all these excitement, I have this sudden fear, am I doing something I love to do? Is this the right profession for my future? Am I making the right decision in my life? I just don't know. Sometimes I feel like this is not me! This is not what I wanted to do! I wanted to be someone else, I want to do something different. Being in the medical line had always been my dream since young, something about medical line still interest me, I don't know what it it exactly but I still love it. I bought a book recently, and it about all the diseases in the world. The first thing I do every morning is to read the book. I don't know why but I do that. A slight complain from anyone about a back pain, or headache or just anything, I will go and look up for information in the book. So, yeah. I don't know. Is it called a hobby or my interest or love for medical line? I just don't know!

P/s : Who knows a few years from now, you will see me working elsewhere, a health consultant maybe. I don't know. Miracles do happen, right?