Why am I so worried for?

I had a very high hopes and expectations on how I want my life to be. I want to be a PhD holder, I want to own a big car, I want to write a book. I want to do this, do that! I had like a strand of thoughts on what I wanted to be. Who I want my life partner to be. Few months back, I even wrote a list on the qualities of my life partner. Well, everyone do have their dream guy right? How will he look like, his qualities, his career, his family and so forth. I had a long list too. Well not actually long, its just less than 10 qualities.

But all of a sudden I feel that, what is the use of all this? Why do I need all this when God has a whole lot of different plans for us. Why should I waste time writing about my dream guy or dreaming a life of wonderland in the future. God knows who I will be with, how will he be and where I will be in 5 years from now. When anything happens, all I will say is.. ' I shall leave everything in HIS hands, he will take care of me...'. So, why don't I say it now. Why am I so worried about who I will be with in the future? Will I meet my Mr. right? or How is my life going to be? Where I will be in 5 years from now? Why am I so worried about all these stuff and getting myself stressed?

With full heartedly, I shall now leave everything in god's hands. I will ripe of my paper containing list of things I wrote. Let god take me where he wants me to be. He has decided a life for me and I shall not worry about what challenges I will face on my path to reach moksha. God will never let me down. :)

I love you swami.. You will forever be in my heart... :)